The following was a comment left here. I decided to make it an article for the sake of visibility and for others comments.
No way to really put this than to go ahead and say it… I believe I might be possessed by a succubus. Why do I say this? I currently have a boyfriend, been with him for two years. When I met him, he started having nightmares and dreams where he will have intense orgasms. He is also very attached to me, and I can easily control him. Sometimes when I am around him or away from him for too long, he gets ulcers and will throw up blood. He has even said that during sex with me, it is the best feeling he has ever had.
I have an intense sexual drive, though I cannot ever emotionally connect during sex. If I try, it is no fun nor pleasurable and just feels awkward. Lust during sex is what I thrive for. Though at times, sex is very boring to me, but I use it to control my boyfriend… even other men.
Yes, I am in a relationship. But over the past few months, every man I talk to becomes attracted and very attached to me. I have them wrapped around my finger, and though I don’t mean to, I can control them with sex. Not even physical, I can do this over skype by revealing my body to these men. I don’t mean to do these things with them… I can’t control it.
The majority of all of these relationships starts soley with them “Falling in love” with me emotionally.. nothing sexual until I choose that it is the right time to start doing sexual things. They become obsessed with me, claim they are madly in love with me and want to live the rest of their life with me, and if I don’t talk to them for a few hours they either become very anxious or very depressed… It’s very annoying. Some of them abandon their friends and family for me. One just recently attempted suicide when I decided to try to end things with him due to the guilt that I was feeling. He’s in the ICU now.
I do feel guilt for the things I do but I also feel pleasure, joy, control. It’s like I feed off of it and I want it, I love this power. It feels wonderful. But I think the normal side of me is feeling guilty. It’s like I’m battling myself, my real self, and the succubus inside of me.
I’ve been told that I’m enchanting. Men commonly allow me to control them, to hurt them, rape them mentally, emotionally. I know I’m doing it, I enjoy it. It gives me energy, makes me feel powerful.
I have noticed that even when I go into public, men all around will stop and stare at me. Though that would normally make a woman irritated or feel violated, I enjoy it. I like to imagine myself having wonderful, lustful sex with all of these men that stare at me, especially with the ones that give me control over them.
Though I feel guilty about the one who attempted suicide a few days ago, I’m also smiling right now because that is how much control I have over people just by sex. …And now I am with his one of his best friends.
Awhile back, something came over me, an intense sexual urge and the fantasy to allow myself to lie in bed nude and imagine the strong, powerful, pleasurable feeling that would be sex with a demon. I had the longest stamina and the strongest orgasm that day. Since then, the above things have occurred.
Not positive I am, but I would love your opinion on this…
Do you think I am a succubus, or possessed by one?
My "Succubus" Wife 
Loose Cannon
April 17, 2014 at 10:21 am
My initial impression is no, you are not possessed. Either we have free-will, or we don’t. I say we do have free-will. But I think we can be influenced by spirits, if we allow it. I allow it, and I’m glad.
But it does sound like you may have attracted the attention of what most people call an incubus. Women have these relationships too, but it seems that it’s mostly men that write about it. If I could find more women writing about this, I’d be happy to add her link.
I think you are not a succubus, and are just a very sexual woman. We men pick up on this by the way you carry yourself. Some women just naturally turn heads. And some or maybe most men act like total goofballs around women they find attractive. Men don’t know how to act anymore, because (in my opinion) this culture is nothing but a huge mess.
Some men can be a little funny when around women, Some men get obsessed and then married to the first woman that shows a little interest, and their lives end up being totally fucked up. They’re basically starved for attention and affection, and love. It is a dull woman indeed that doesn’t recognize this. And it’s a strong man that will not allow that to happen under any circumstances.
That’s what I think, And I thank you for leaving this comment.
ken757
April 17, 2014 at 12:23 pm
I agree with lossecannon on this. To me an attractive lady that can seduce a man is not exaclty a superpower in my book. The fact that you have insatable sexual desire, doesn’t suprise me ether, most people (myself) included are the same way. Your emotional (or lack of) bond with your men sounds psychological not supernatural. However having a spirit lover can influenece events in your life (desires, relationships, etc) and can increase your natural gifts or talents. You should take complement that you have such a way with guys, now your BF with his ulcers sounds medical not supernatrual (in other words he NEEDS to see a doctor) You are just a charming seductive women not a succubus. I have met many on experience project that make claims (some are more plausable than others) of being one or a psychic vampire (which is possible). I wouldnt abuse your femine charm too much, last thing you need is a obsessed stalker. I will give all the advice and help I can, but like I said what a succubus really is vs. what pop culture says is NOT the same. I have made many posts on the subject as well as my friends here, and on experienceproject on different subjects.
Loose Cannon
April 17, 2014 at 12:37 pm
Good point about the stalker angle. You’re 100% right. Wednesday is playing with fire if she lets it get out of hand.
All the feminine power in the world won’t stop a bullet.
burythehatchet truce
July 1, 2017 at 1:46 pm
@loose cannon i back again
ken757
April 17, 2014 at 1:09 pm
No shit…Being a player can be fun, but it can get bad if you cross the wrong one.
Wednesday Grey
April 17, 2014 at 2:13 pm
Thank you for your comments.
I agree with the both of you, now that I get an outside opinion on things. I have been regularly fantasizing about sex with spirits and I must say that that is when I get my most pleasure. I’m not going to label myself with a religion, but I dabble in a bit of witchcraft and enjoy my sexual spirits.
Not sure if that influences the way I treat the men of the world, and perhaps why I have such a strong sexual desire?
ken757
April 17, 2014 at 2:19 pm
From experience they CAN enhance your desire for sex, as well as other things. I highly recommend that you read the posts of myself and my friends here for some insight and advice on this.
ken757
April 17, 2014 at 2:21 pm
but from what I read so far, I have alot in common, except I tend to try to heal others then hurt them. Of course im no saint, from my perspective Im one of the darkest guys here…lol I just know how to keep a peaceful balance for the most part. 🙂
Loose Cannon
April 17, 2014 at 4:24 pm
I’ve heard they can have an effect on other peoples reactions to you. But I try and stay away from saying too much about what I’ve “heard”. The internet is full of that kind of crap and I don’t want to add to it.
You might need a womans perspective. The problem is I don’t know any women that write blogs on this topic. The only thing I can do is give this link, where there are women that post http://incubisuccubae.yuku.com/
The problem with that board is they make you jump thru hoops just to read what’s there. And they take their sweet-ass time when it comes to “approving” new members. I posted there a couple years ago. But, if you can get in, it might help you.
succubusdesire
April 17, 2014 at 8:42 pm
That forum doesn’t seem to approve new members, at least they would never approve me.
I agree that it doesn’t sound like you are possessed by a succubus. In a way it almost sounded like maybe you were looking for ‘being possessed as a succubus’ to be an excuse to explain/justify your bad behaviour.
Definitely be careful around men. And your BF should definitely go see a doctor.
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succubusdesire
April 17, 2014 at 8:43 pm
Definitely be careful around men* that should say.
Loose Cannon
April 17, 2014 at 9:04 pm
I left because I didn’t like the way the forum was run. It was just best to say adios and go my own way.The people there were great though.
ken757
April 18, 2014 at 7:20 am
Yeah that forum never approved me either. Thier loss…lol
shetakaey
October 16, 2014 at 7:35 pm
You know me. 😛
chef
April 17, 2014 at 9:20 pm
I’m going to take a slightly different position than Loose Canon and ken. From the reading I’ve been doing lately and in the past, there are many varieties of sexual spirits. Succubus/Incubus are words we use that are really a generic blanket term for these different beings that express themselves through sexual energy. The loving, caring, nurturing sexual spirits that Loose Canon, ken, and many others have relationships with (and I hope to, as well), don’t fit the traditional Judeo-Christian bull shit model of succubus/incubus. It appears, however, there are others that are malevolent. You say you had an experience, and since then you’ve become the way you are now. It’s certainly possible in my mind that you’ve come under the influence of one of the variety of “not good” sexual spirits. I’ve read a few accounts where a summoning spell was used by someone with no training or knowledge of magick, and after a time, what started as warm and wonderful turns into a nightmare. Basically, they’ve let the wrong one in. Feel free to call shenanigans on that if you wish, as I’ve no proof as to whether or not these accounts are true. What I will say is this: Everyone who blogs about their relationship with their spirit partner has never said anything about being driven to have sex with other humans, or about adverse psychological effects on other humans, or experiencing mind blowing sex with humans. Quite, the opposite, it’s monogamous, sex with their spirit lover is mind blowing, and their spirit lover is a helper and a guide, a positive influence on their lives.
Are you possessed? I don’t know, I mostly agree with Loose Canon on the issue. Are you being influenced by something getting it’s kicks through you? Possible, I guess. Plenty of good resources on line for cleansing and banishing, can’t hurt to try. Just my 2¢, and 2¢, ain’t worth much.
ken757
April 18, 2014 at 7:27 am
Every spirit is different. There are some bad ones out there. I have made many posts of my bad experences. There are also many forms of possession/spritual influence. I can only go off of what she told us. There are cases (mine included) where we have both a human and spirit partner. Is it a challenge maintaining both. Yes, but it can be done. It all depends on all the parties involved. You should read all my posts for a brief account of my experiences. Its really hard to explain, my rule of thumb is to keep an open mind on things.
Wednesday Grey
April 18, 2014 at 8:47 am
Thank you all for your comments! I have more points of my story that I can say, but I left them out because it would’ve been a long type and I had little time then. But I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I could be dealing with a bad spirit… but I don’t want it to leave. Though at times I hate what it does to me, or makes me do, I love it. It’s like a part of me now and to get rid of it, I would feel crippled.
Can spirit lovers change gender though? Mine is sometimes female. Mostly male, though.
Let me know if you’d like me to continue telling you points of my story–will take the time to write it.
ken757
April 18, 2014 at 11:53 am
you are more than welcome to tell us more. From my experiences I have helped many with a similar situation like you. There is no simple answer to answering a spirit’s gender. Some say a spirit has no gender and can change it’s gender and appearance at will to fit the situation, some say they are male or female. I have experences with both genders. In your case be open to the idea that maybe you have more than one spirit. Now I wont tell you if your spirit or spirits are bad or not. There are darker spirits that do not act hostile, and there are light spirits that are potentially dangerous. I need more information on the situation so I dont give any bad advice or help.
Loose Cannon
April 19, 2014 at 7:05 am
My opinion is they have a balance of male and female energy. They aren’t limited by hormones and brain and body architecture. That’s obvious, I know, but it’s worth mentioning.
You’re welcome to write here anytime. And I encourage you to start a blog. Writing a journal will help you and others.
ken757
April 19, 2014 at 7:46 am
If she starts a blog which I hope she does. I want to be a subscriber
Wednesday Grey
April 19, 2014 at 8:29 am
Would I have to make a WordPress account to start a blog? I will finish my story here, since it is part of the comments.
ken757
April 19, 2014 at 8:39 am
yes…but its free and easy to do. If I can do it, anyone can. 🙂
Wednesday Grey
April 19, 2014 at 9:02 am
Will work on making one later. 🙂 Just posted my story.
Loose Cannon
April 19, 2014 at 9:19 am
I’ll repost this as another article. Getting a womans perspective on this is rare.
Wednesday Grey
April 19, 2014 at 9:01 am
Ever since my first sexual experience with a spirit, my sex drive is almost constant. And these men I talk to have also said that they are unusually horny.
I have heard that succubi attack while their target is asleep, that they will attack in dreams. Ever since I start to know these men, they have said that they have nightmares a lot, of losing me. But also that they have frequent sex dreams with me. I, too, have the sex dreams. But not only that, I have woken up fully undressed and either touching myself or riding the body pillow beside me–usually later that day is when the men tell me of their sex dreams.
The men have also told me that they feel drained, are very tired, and they have started sleeping more than usual. One of them took sleeping pills so that he could stay asleep and enjoy his dreams.
I do not dress immodestly, but I am quite naturally voluptuous (measurments of 39″, 28″, 39″). Which, arguably, might be why men are drawn to me. But it–their stopping and staring–always happens. Even when I am dressed in extremely baggy coats and am not wearing anything flattering.
Women are also drawn to me. I have had plenty of sexual encounters with women and can also control them. However, men do seem to give me more control, thus, making me more pleased.
After giving men a few sexual encounters with me, I am able to talk them into ejaculating. They are mature men.
Keep in mind that I don’t only have my dealings with them due to sex. It’s also emotional ties that they form with me. Claiming to be madly in love with me, wanting to make me their wife, etc.
I have also broken up a few homes. Even husbands have left their wives for chances at pleasurable sex with me. I enjoy satisfying these men that haven’t felt the satisfaction of amazing sex in a long time.
My boyfriend is a Satanist, and a week before he met me, he made a sacrifice and said a prayer for me. Literally, prayed for a girl with the exact description of me. Dark hair, dark eyes, goth, big breasts, big rear, great sex, will stay with him, etc. He got what he wanted–and around the time that I met him, I do feel a bit different than from before I met him.
Ever since I was little, I have played with spirits. My grandpa and father were into witchcraft and summoning. When I was little, they used to pray and summon for a spirit of safety to come over me. One day when alone with my spirit and playing, I told her that she could just come inside of me, then she wouldn’t have to worry about losing me in a large crowd. (I was 6 and didn’t understand the power of spirits.) I have always been a sexual person, I was 12 when my first mildly sexual encounter came. But when I hit 18 and I decided to summon my current sexual spirit(s), that is when my sexual desire and energy has hit it’s absolute peak. It’s almost unbearable.
I don’t grow tired of the men I have in my control, but I do feel the need for more.
I am a skeptic that I am or might be possessed by a succubus. The thoughts just recently started coming to mind when about 4 men have started referring to me as a succubus. So, naturally, that is why I am here.
ken757
April 19, 2014 at 11:25 am
I would say that you are gifted. I really think you should make a post. You can make a cute name for it. The funny thing is we have soo much in common it is scary. I can tell you this. I have had experiences with spirits since I was little. It runs in the family. Most of them were not fun. Recently I have been having experiences with “friendlier” ones, and I DO mean the fun way. I am happy you have someone in your life. I am happy that he has what he prayed for. Just like when I prayed to Lilith and I got Jazmine, and possibly half her sisters as well. LOL. I am not going to tell you of what you should do, but I will give you advice based on what I know. I also have alot of friends here (loose cannon is one of them) that can help you as well.
Kevin Heinrich
May 3, 2015 at 4:00 am
Wednesday Grey – I would agree with most posts here, but I wouldnt jump to the conclusion your spirit is bad – especially if you enjoy what it is doing for you. For the gender question- in jewish tradition about Lilith the mother of all succubi and lilim – she possesses both genders because she is complete. Adam also used to possess both genders but when he wanted to be dominant over Lilith – she left him and so God had to make him Eve (took the feminine part out of him) and so that’s the tradition. Beyond that most spirits can and do enjoy being either or both genders.
Are you possessed? Techically yes, but it’s not a bad thing – merely a hollywood and christian misunderstanding of what possession actually is. Let me be clear. ALL people with a spirit lover that feel interactions with their lover are experiencing a partial possession where they are merging part of themselves with you so that you can feel those sensations. Full possession only truly occurs when you welcome a spirit into complete control over you – and you will have no recollection afterwards. This state only lasts a little while and is often used in Brazilian cults such as Quimbanda and others.
Are you a succubus? Kinda – there are two options (or both are possible) The first and likely what is occuring is the “gifting” or “merging” of the spirit entity’s abilities into you. This generally happens when spirit lovers become extremely close to each other – especially in actual relationships. I’ve experienced this personally, and the effect only increases – as do the urges with time. This ultimately culminates in the complete hybridization of your being and your spiritual evolution into a full succubus/incubus when you shed your human body many many years from now. These abilities increase the longevity of youth, reverse aging, and bring good health and longevity. The second possibility is that you are one of the lilim, part human and part succubus – for it is well within the power of Lilith and other succubi to create such beings – and are well known parts of various spiritual traditions and beliefs (also known as Cambions or the Nephilim). This is likely if you’ve always been this way sexually and mentally – and dare I say spiritually!
Anonymous
August 13, 2015 at 2:20 pm
I’ve been going through something sort of like what Wednesday mentioned. Are there any other ways that Lilith/succubi/incubi have influence over people? An incubi-like spirit has been in my life since I was born, I just found out about him last year, though. He revealed himself shortly after I started trying to contact Lilith. I’ve always felt a familiarity with her. Like, I was intensely drawn to her since the day I first heard her name mentioned (I was about six at the time.)
Do you know what the number 222 means to Lilith?
Kevin Heinrich
August 13, 2015 at 8:52 pm
Lilith – and her children can have a phenomenal impact on humans they interact with. Possession can be experienced but is not an evil thing like in the movies (see my earlier post in this thread). The drawing to the occult and particularly to Lilith can be indicative that you are a Cambion like being (part demon), but it can also just be the influence of your flesh (from Tiamut) and blood (from demon King Kingu) from Akkadian/Sumerian Origins story. It makes a heck of a lot of sense to me. We were made to be slaves of Gods – but Tiamut has had the last laugh and our body and blood will always have that drawing to the demonic in us. Humanity has slain gods and we are no longer slaves – that’s a wonderful thing!
Loose Cannon
August 14, 2015 at 6:04 am
here is a link to “gematria” which is something I know nothing about, really. I think Crowley was into it.
Here is what’s listed for 222 http://www.billheidrick.com/works/hgm2/hg0220.htm
Kevin Heinrich
August 13, 2015 at 9:00 pm
Also, the numbers 2, 11, 111 – and naturally 222 are important or sacred to Lilith. 2 for the number of ‘evil’ – eleven for two individuals coming together in covenant as one – and far more than the sum of their parts – this trend continues with 111 and 222 speaking to the union between Lilith, Sammael, and the Blind Dragon that links them – an infernal ‘unholy’ trinity that leads man in the cause of freedom and individuality. There is even more stuff buried in these numbers but those are the points that resonate with me and through communications with Lilith.
burythehatchet truce
July 1, 2017 at 3:36 pm
ur not possessed… possession is not real, it’s a state of mind. people hallucinate it unfortunately to create trouble to themselves without notice. it’s an illusion. Ur strong sexual urge could be because u might be horn…ur bf need a doctor